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2016-12-30 05:54 pm

Moved

With everything happening between the US and Russia I'm moving my stuff over here and deleting my LJ account. I kind of feel like I've outgrown the username anyway.
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2016-06-01 10:01 am
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PTSd Pop Culture Rambling

This wasn't quite an appropriate response for the Tumblr conversation I saw so I'm putting it here because there is something here I've been trying to figure out how to say for awhile. Context is that people were saying John Reese from Person of Interest is not depicted as having PTSD. I strenuously disagree.

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2016-05-26 08:54 pm

Cap and Hydra

I’ve thought about several ways to write this out but seeing the news of Hydra!Cap solidified what I want to say. This isn’t about the comic book line, this is about MCU and how Hydra!Cap is a logical continuation of the things about MCU that infuriate me.

I’m white and American. In America there is no way I don’t qualify as white. I practically glow in the dark. To the best of my knowledge, I have no relatives who are Jewish or Wandering People and I will leave discussion of aspects relevant to that side of things to the people who understand it from the inside. Nazis would kill me for other reasons instead. I’m not straight. I’m not neurotypical. I have enough Slavic heritage to be uncertain how much of an issue it would be.

What it feels like is that the MCU doesn’t respect or acknowledge that the Nazis aren’t some Platonic Ideal of villainy. They’re real and they want to hurt and kill people like me, people like my friends, strangers I pass on the street, my Kindergarten teacher. I wasn’t expecting much better from TFA. It’s a WWII movie, so of course Steve is being sent against Nazis. I was disappointed but unsurprised that they gave so little attention to why Nazis are awful and used it as a shortcut instead. Sadly, this is just situation normal.

TWS is different. There are a lot of things I like about it but it’s use of Nazis is worse and more insidious. Not only is it cheap to chalk every misstep of our government up to secret Nazis when real, actual fascists are making gains in elections all over America and Europe, but it buys into Nazi propaganda.

Popular culture conceptualizes Nazis as this ultra-efficient force. A kind of “they may be awful but they have their upsides.” The truth is that they were horribly inefficient. Sure, they had geniuses running their rocket programs and their medical research gave us the start on modern computing systems (because the people in charge of Nazi medical experiments were making efforts to be as devoid of empathy and compassion for the suffering they caused as humanly possible). However,, the Nazis threw money at all sorts of programs. It wasn’t about the success of the program, it was about the interest of the people on top. Similarly, the people on top spent enough time and resources vying for favor to diminish one another’s ability to actually accomplish shit. Even if they could have somehow fought the Allies to a standstill, they couldn’t have won. Sooner or later they would run out of people to kill in order to take their stuff to pay for the myriad of pet projects they wasted time and money on.

The Nazis were always going to fail.

Portraying them as a threat that can wait to spring from the shadows misses the core of what makes them terrible. It’s erasing part of their evil and glorifying them with skills they didn’t have. It’s giving them a power they shouldn’t have either in our world or in the narratives we tell about them. It makes them seem cool and powerful instead of brutal and shortsighted.

And it ignores the real problem: fascists don’t skulk in the shadows, they try to push their agenda openly. They commit hate crimes openly. They make only token efforts to hide because they feel justified, they feel they’re in the right. They’re proud of what they are.

Now, I can see the potential value in a storyline where Steve is introduced with the simplistic, “I hate bullies,” and gradually learns the more subtle flavors of oppression, showing that even Captain America can have lapses in judgment of who to trust and what makes someone a “good man.” But that isn’t what TWS did. That would require follow through which the MCU doesn’t seem interested in doing.

And that’s not because it would be a weak story. It would be fascinating. Imagine showing every Avenger struggling with the question of “should I have seen this coming?” as they’re put on trial for cooperating with Hydra and investigated for Nazi ties. Imagine a movie explicitly picking apart exactly how Hydra achieved and maintained power. Imagine showing those people Steve inspired into helping him against Project Insight as they face the fact that they may have stood up but they were complicit. Show us the way hiring was warped to seed the ranks with people who were Nazis, Nazi sympathizers, and people corrupt enough to look the other way. Show us the psychological evaluations that determined who would resist and who could be brought in and who was there to lend them legitimacy. For things in TWS to have gone the way they did, SHIELD is a festering pit of corruption that needs to be indicted from top to bottom. Everyone needs to go to trial to determine how deeply the rot goes. For me, this is the bare minimum of what’s needed if the villains must be Nazis. It is infuriatingly dishonest to try to skip out on it.

I walked out of TWS with that mix of wanting to love the movie but feeling frustrated and unfulfilled. I wanted to root for the everyday people standing up to the Nazis in their midst but I couldn’t forget that they had been helping Nazis. I wanted to see the ending as Natasha overcoming her past but all I kept hearing was a Russian thumbing her nose at the idea of holding people accountable for cooperating with Nazis. And that’s why this comic book move doesn’t surprise me. If they have no interest in follow through, just the moment of horror, then the only way to escalate from “Cap unknowingly worked for Hydra” is to remove the ”un.” It’s a logical progression and it’s sickening. And to top it off, it’s really shitty writing.

Drama isn’t in the moment, the climax of the story. Drama is in the fallout. Drama is in the buildup. Without the melodies and movements to support that high note, the note itself is meaningless, just a noise. “Dun dun DUN Hydra is among us!” means nothing if it isn’t used to further the story on both the metaplot level and the characters’ personal arcs. It’s reducing the lives of all the people the Nazis killed to nothing. It’s reducing the fact that they would try to kill people like me to disaster porn.

It makes it clear that the people who would be the casualties of the actions used to justify the behavior of SHIELD’s “good” operatives mean only that. We’re an excuse for Steve, Clint, and Natasha to avoid consequences for their action and inaction. We’re worth more than that but Marvel has made it clear what it thinks our place is.
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2016-05-24 07:40 pm

Marvel Hydra Meta

I know I’m hardly the first to say any of this and I’m probably not the most original but the CA:CW marketing has consistently brought these thoughts back to me so here goes:

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2015-10-28 01:50 am

Book Round-Up

A very, very belated book round up. Spoilers throughout for things I didn’t enjoy or feel need to be spoiled. Shorter than you might think given how long it’s been because I didn’t do much reading while I was playing shell games with my living arrangements.

The Lions of Al-Rassan by Guy Gavriel Kay )

Feed by Mira Grant )

Deadline by Mira Grant )

Blackout by Mira Grant )

Dragon Age: The Last Flight by Liane Merciel )

The Wells of Shiuan by CJ Cherryh )

The Fires of Azeroth by CJ Cherryh )

Exile’s Gate by CJ Cherryh )

Finder by Emma Bull )

Pocket Apocalypse by Seanan McGuire )

A Turn of Light by Julie E. Czerneda )

Festival Moon )

Searoad: Chronicles of Klatsand  )
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2015-10-25 08:57 pm

I'm back

I had a series of stressful things followed by pneumonia which then settled into my tonsils. My tonsils have only now stopped being gross.

I plan to get my very belated book round up written up by the end of the week. And I'm doing NaNo this year.

The new apartment is nice. No mold or other stuff. A little creaky but the layout is so much less awkward. My bed isn't up against my sister's wall anymore.

I'm trying to set up a schedule for work and job applications and that's going so-so. My LD means that's difficult. Anything I missed or you think I ought to look into, please comment or PM.
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2015-07-30 07:07 pm
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Meme Thursday

Give me a character and I will tell you:

Sexuality Headcanon:
Gender Headcanon:
A ship I have with said character:
A friendship I have with said character:
A NOTP I have with said character:
A random headcanon:
General Opinion over said character:
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2015-07-04 01:32 am
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Fic: Sunfall: Kirkwall

Title: Sunfall: Kirkwall
Fandom: Dragon Age, Sunfall
Length: ~ 2.7K
Rating: General Audiences
Pairings/Characters: Rowan/Loghain Mac Tir, Fiona/Maric Theirin, Alistair/Female Amell, Leliana/Female Tabris, Anders/Hawke, Fenris/Male Hawke, Female Lavellan/Solas, Anora Mac Tir/Cailan Theirin, Briala/Celene I, Yavanna
Content: fusion fic, Omniscient Narrator, Fatalism, Dystopia, Suicide, Death, lots of death, Reincarnation, death again, screwed up relationships, experimental writing style, Unhappy, Not Funny, pointlessness of immortality
Summary: Fusion with CJ Cherryh's Sunfall. It mostly draws on "The Only Death In The City" subbing in parts of "The General" for some of the squickier weirdness and a touch of "Ice."

The sun had grown dim and faded with time. The world grew tired. The barriers between one life and the next grew thin enough to disappear. Everything has been done before. There is nothing new in the world. No new people. No new choices. And only one way out.

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2015-06-28 10:48 pm

Fic: Backing The Right Horse

Title: Backing The Right Horse
Fandom: Dragon Age
Length: ~ 3.7K
Rating: General Audiences
Pairings/Characters: Dorian Pavus, Aquinea Thalrassian
Content: referenced m!Lavellan/Dorian, referenced Halward Pavus/Aquinea Thalrassian, referenced adultery, terrible parenting, slavery, gambling, unhappy marriage, Tevinter is Byzantium, I did historical research
Summary: Shamelessly self-indulgent headcanon fic about Dorian and his mother. Takes place after Young and Vibrant though the events of that fic are only important for character development reasons.

Dorian wants to change Tevinter. There's a logical place to start with that but that doesn't mean he has to like it.

Notes: My take on Tevinter is heavily, heavily, heavily inspired by Guy Gavriel Kay's Sarantine Mosaic novels.

I love any excuse to ramble about my headcanons, research, ideas, and interpretations of the game. If you have any interest, give me an excuse.

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2015-06-14 03:26 pm
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(no subject)

I am busy with moving and rescheduling an appointment where I will be knocked out.

I thought I'd be able to get a post together for meme stuff while I'm doing that but my brain appears to not be cooperating. So, I'm sorry to people I owe responses to on anything more complicated than 'Thank you.' I'll get on them when I get done with the stressful part of the month. Communicating complex ideas as myself is not a thing that's happening right now.
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2015-05-28 06:46 pm
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Meme Thursday

Give me a fandom and I’ll tell you

Favorite Male Character
Favorite Female Character
Least Favorite Character
Favorite Ship
Favorite Friendship
Favorite Quote
Worst Character Death (if any)
This made me so happy you have no idea Moment
Saddest Moment
Favorite Location

[livejournal.com profile] meridian_rose:

Leverage )

Star Wars )

[livejournal.com profile] samvimes_ftw:

MCU )

Marvel 616 )

Toby Daye )

[livejournal.com profile] booknerdguru

Gale Women )

Newsflesh )

Sarantine Mosaic )

Send me a ship and I’ll tell you:

Who cooks:
Who does the laundry and other chores:
How many children do they have:
Who’s more dominate:
Favorite nonsexual activity:
Their favorite place to be together:
Any traditions:
Their “song”:
What they do for each other on holidays:
Where did they go for their honeymoon:
Where did they first meet:
Any pets:
What do they fight over:
Do they go on vacations, if so where:

[livejournal.com profile] hrhrionastar:

Legend of the Seeker )

MCU )

Teen Wolf )
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2015-05-23 06:20 pm
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Fic: Inescapable

Title: Inescapable (Part 4 of They Say That The Happy Is Expensive (But The Ever After's Free))
Fandom: Legend of the Seeker
Rating: Teen
Length: ~5.5K
Characters: Kahlan Amnell, Cara Mason, Richard Cypher, Zeddicus Zu'l Zorander, Jennsen Rahl, Dennee Amnell
Contents: unhappy pregnancy stuff, discussion of infanticide, open ending, timeline shenanigans, powerful magic, Rahl Bond

Summary: Richard and Kahlan are having a son. Shota wants to save the world. Zedd wants to avoid repeating his father's mistakes. Cara gets what she wants.

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2015-05-09 07:30 pm

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I would just like to register my complaint with the universe about the existence of May.
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2015-05-07 10:52 pm
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Meme Thursday

Send me a ship and I’ll tell you:

Who cooks:
Who does the laundry and other chores:
How many children do they have:
Who’s more dominate:
Favorite nonsexual activity:
Their favorite place to be together:
Any traditions:
Their “song”:
What they do for each other on holidays:
Where did they go for their honeymoon:
Where did they first meet:
Any pets:
What do they fight over:
Do they go on vacations, if so where:
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2015-04-16 10:15 pm
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Meme Thursday

Give me a fandom and I’ll tell you

Favorite Male Character
Favorite Female Character
Least Favorite Character
Favorite Ship
Favorite Friendship
Favorite Quote
Worst Character Death (if any)
This made me so happy you have no idea Moment
Saddest Moment
Favorite Location
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2015-04-14 08:11 pm

Quarterly Book Round Up

I'm bending my rules a bit to include the entire Fionavar Tapestry because otherwise I'd be reviewing book 1 now and 2 and 3 in July. As always, I try to keep spoilers vague but sometimes I really hate a spoiler and feel the need to share.

Stealing Magic by Tanya Huff )

The Waterborn by Greg Keyes )

The Blackgod by Greg Keyes )

Red as Blood by Tanith Lee )

The Hounds of Ash: And Other Tales of Fool Wolf by Greg Keyes )

The Winter Long by Seanan McGuire )

Shadow Magic by Patricia C. Wrede )

Caught In Crystal by Patricia C. Wrede )

Sailing to Sarantium by Guy Gavriel Kay )

Lord of Emperors by Guy Gavriel Kay )

The Future Falls by Tanya Huff )

The Fionavar Tapestry by Guy Gavriel Kay )
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2015-04-14 12:40 am
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Meme Answers

Send me a fandom and I will tell you:

[livejournal.com profile] meridian_rose: Teen Wolf

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[livejournal.com profile] hrhrionastar: Legend of the Seeker

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[livejournal.com profile] samvimes_ftw: Mass effect, MCU, Pacific Rim

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[livejournal.com profile] booknerdguru: Gales, Sarantine Mosaic

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[livejournal.com profile] hrhrionastar: Legend of the Seeker, Avengers

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[livejournal.com profile] samvimes_ftw: Mass Effect, Dragon Age, New Jedi Order, Spider-Man, X-Men

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[livejournal.com profile] meridian_rose: Leverage

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2015-04-03 09:15 am
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Meme Thursday

A little late due to last minute house sitting. I'll put both sets of answers up at the same time.

Give me a fandom and I'll tell you:

5 favorite characters:
3 OTPs:
Funniest character:
Prettiest character:
Most badass character:
Character I’d like as my BFF:
Character that’s ruined my life:
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2015-03-26 08:58 am
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Meme Thursday

Send me a fandom and I will tell you:

character I’d like to see in a flower crown
character I’d like to see have an emotional breakdown
character I’d like to see get punched in the face
character most likely to sing along to journey songs in the car
character who refuses to pull over and ask for directions on roadtrips
character who always stubs their toes on the washing machine
character who changes their starbucks order ten times
character who shows up late for everything
character who is the worst kisser
character who takes 45 minutes showers
character who gets most bent out of shape over the pronunciation of gif
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2015-03-24 12:29 am
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Meme Answers

Give me a character from any fandom, tv show, movie, book you know that I know and I will tell you:
a. My favorite thing about that character.
b. My least favorite thing about that character.
c. One person I would ship them with in their own verse.
d. One crossover ship for them I think would be neat.
e. One crossover universe for them I think would be even neater.
f. Their ship from hell.
g. Their song.
h. The title of their biography or autobiography.
i. The last bad dream they had.
j. How they're gonna shuffle off the mortal coil, if they haven't already.

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[livejournal.com profile] hrhrionastar asks:

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[livejournal.com profile] meridian_rose asks:

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